Political Discourse at 1120 Bon Air Road

We have just navigated one of the oddest, most contentious, least traditional election cycles in the history of politics.

And even now that it's over, it's not really over, as "Not My President" protests continue to create havoc in cities across the U.S.

I voted. I'm content with the person for whom I cast a vote. And for how all that eventually worked out, the good and the bad.

But all the public debate and outright anger of politics in 2016 did spark a memory.

My parents were a household divided.

Mom was a devoted Democrat. I think much of that affinity came from her status as a Depression kid. A lot of that generation viewed FDR as a saint and kept the affinity moving forward.

Mom love-l0ve-loved JFK and, from what I'm told (I was too young to remember, although your reading of that statement is indeed correct if it infers that I was alive in November 1963. I was indeed; I was 11 months old), she wept bitterly at his assassination.

Dad, on the other hand, leaned right. I think some of that was attributable to his time in the Navy; after his discharge, he returned to the service as a civilian and launched an engineering career helping with the design of aircraft carriers.

His commander-in-chief during those years was President Dwight D. Eisenhower, a Republican.

As their 1957 marriage continued, they remained peacefully in separate camps. I remember both of them staunchly committing to get to the polling places every four years, if for no other reason but to "cancel each other out."

By the time the Johnson Administration was getting bogged down in Vietnam, things were beginning to get strained in the Weckerly political climate.

Mom's peacenik stance led her to rail against LBJ and what she perceived as warmongering for profit, with no clear exit strategy in place.

Dad, on the other hand, mourned the loss of life. But at the end of the day, the war effort was supplying him with the means to support his family. And although I'm sure he prayed for its quick end, he did so with an eye toward self-preservation.

They never argued politics in front of us. Never once.

What they did do -- and as I remember it was only once a year -- is this: When political rhetoric would begin to thicken between them, they would go to the basement laundry room, pile a few pairs of sneakers in the dryer, turn it on to mask the sound of their voices, and argue their opposite points with rigor and passion.

What they didn't know, or maybe they did but didn't care, is that my brothers and I would scurry to the nearest heat register, open the vents and listen.

I remember not understanding a lot of it, talk of the Gulf of Tonkin and Ho Chi Minh and Tet. 

I also knew that when the discussion ended, it ended. 

The dryer went off. Which was our cue to scamper away from the heat register.

They both climbed the stairs.

And life went on.

All in all, not a bad way of hashing out differences of political opinion.

All we need in the U.S. now, I believe, is a dryer loud enough to mask all the shouting.

 

Food for Thought

This is a story of shame.

My shame.

Fortunately, I acted on my shamefulness and have committed to moving forward in faith.

But still, it’s a story of shame.

Last summer, I was extremely fortunate enough to be chosen to sing in the choir that would accompany the Mass on the Benjamin Franklin Parkway in Philadelphia, celebrated by Pope Francis.

It was a deep honor, both as a musician and as a Roman Catholic, and I wrote about it here.

The rehearsal schedule to prep for this Mass was rigorous; each Monday evening for eight weeks or so, I left my office in King of Prussia and drove to the Cathedral Basilica of Sts. Peter and Paul. There, with dozens of other singers, I rehearsed my part.

The timing meant that I could not accommodate dinner, so I often swung through a nearby Wawa after rehearsal was over, grabbing something to eat and devouring it on the drive home.

As the date of the Papal Mass approached, our rehearsals switched to Verizon Hall, with accompaniment by the Philadelphia Orchestra.

One evening, I left rehearsal, blew through Wawa and walked to the garage where I had parked my car.

As I was about to get in, I looked up and saw him. A homeless man was standing about 20 feet in front of the hood of my car. His face was shrouded in darkness, as the sun had already set.

I heard him ask: “Can you give me something to eat?”

Cards on the table, I was fearful.

I fumbled for my keys, tossed my bag of food on the passenger seat and got in.

He continued to stand there.

I felt safer in the car; I knew it would be only a moment or two before he walked away.

Which he eventually did.

So I jammed the keys into the ignition and pointed my car for the safety of the western suburbs.

When traffic eased, I reached for my Wawa bag.

And a wash of guilt flooded me.

Here I was, preparing for a Mass celebrated by Pope Francis – a pope whose personal embrace of the poor and needy was his hallmark. And I couldn’t see fit to share even a portion of my meal with a hungry stranger.

The hoagie stuck in my throat. The Tastykake tasted rancid. The iced tea became cloying.

I stuck the remains of dinner back in its bag and drove home.

The incident stayed with me. In fact, it’s still with me. I have prayed for that guy… perhaps to lift him up, perhaps to ease my guilt at ignoring him.

I was bothered on a number of levels:

• My absolute hypocrisy at participating in the Papal Mass while ignoring Christ’s message of care for the needy.
• My unfounded fear of this guy. So much for “Be Not Afraid.”
• My inability to see Christ in another person.

Fast-forward to this spring.

I was in Washington, D.C., at an awards luncheon, accepting recognition of our PR work at the office.

The meal was plentiful and was expertly presented, and at the finale, several boxes of cookies were presented to each table.

I was already full. I had had salad, entrée and a dessert. The cookies were an extra.

I took two and slid them into my briefcase. I figured I would release them from their cellophane packaging while commuting back to Philadelphia on the afternoon Amtrak train.

When I left the event, the weather was sunny, and D.C. was looking fine. I decided to walk back to Union Station, rather than cab it.

As I progressed, taking in the sights of the nation’s capital, I saw ahead of me a bus kiosk. And next to it was a woman sitting on the sidewalk with her possessions around her.

…

What to do?

Was she mentally ill? If I engaged with her, was I in any kind of danger? Should I just keep walking? I don’t know…

I was getting nearer and nearer to her. And struggling. “You need to see Christ in her,” I told myself. “And you need to be Christ for her.”

See Christ. Be Christ.

But still, a thread of fear was present.

As I passed, though, she cinched it: “Do you have change so I can get something to eat?” she called.

Moment of truth.

And then, I remembered my cookies. The cookies that I didn’t need. The cookies that would only have represented a level of gluttony at that point.

So in one, swift motion, I swung my bag atop a nearby news box and snapped it open. Reaching in, I said, “I have something that might be just as helpful.”

I dug around, grabbed the pair of cookies and handed them to her.

“Go ahead,” I said. “They’re still sealed. They’re okay.”

She took them and thanked me.

I closed my bag and walked on.

In retrospect now, I’m somewhat proud that I overcame my fear and reached out. Still, I reached out from my excess and not from my need. And that’s something I’m committing to working on.

Sacrifice isn’t sacrifice unless it represents a gift that’s meaningful, that’s given from the core, that maybe stings just a little.

But the takeway that stayed with me – and that I’m still trying to reflect – is the outlook that drove 

my actions:

See Christ in others. Be Christ for them.

I'm not publishing this story to demonstrate a moral high-ground. Or to witness to my status as a good Catholic. Or a good Christian, for that matter.

Maybe my point is the simplicity of it all:

See Christ.

Be Christ.

The Fab Five

A year or so ago, I received as a gift a book by Dr. John Wood: Ordinary Lives, Extraordinary Mission (Five Steps to Winning the War Within).

I'm not big on self-help books. 

But this one came from our parish, St. Eleanor, as a Christmas gift. In fact, sufficient quantities were bought for every person who came to Mass for the holy day. Regular parishioners. Guests. And once-a-year drop-ins.

The idea of using this book as a welcoming tool came from our pastor, who is new. And who, frankly, I love. He has arrived at our church brimming with energy and verve, with an electric sense of faith that I admire and a true, living and vibrant reflection of Christ's love and compassion. 

I struggle with the acceptance of God's love. Not sure why. I think it's generational. The Catholic Church of the mid-1960s was still steeped in a lot of hellfire and damnation. So the idea that God loves me can be difficult for me to grasp. Because my inner dialog keeps channeling all that baloney from elementary school: How wretched we are; undeserving of God's even slightest attention; on the brink of his eternal scorn and punishment; blah-blah-blah.

I'm working on it.

Anyway, among Dr. Wood's recommendations (one of the Five Steps) is to make a habit of daily prayer.

And I thought I was pretty good at that one. But when I started to look deeply, I realized that on most days, I was coming up short. Sure there was "stupid prayer" like, "Oh God, let me get this green light... let me get this green light... LET ME GET THIS GREEN LIGHT!!!" But very little that could be called actual dialog.

So I decided to make it a part of my day. Every day.

Wood talks about identifying a "Faithful Five" (or something like that; I actually forget what he calls them). This is a set of go-to saints who have special meaning and who readers are advised to talk to on a daily basis.

Something about that recommendation resonated with me.

Each day, now, for the past year, during my morning walks with Parker, I call on my Faithful Five -- which I've dubbed my "Fab Five":

1. Saint Francis, who I ask to bless all beloved animals, to care for those that are neglected, abused, forgotten and abandoned; those in shelters; those awaiting a home. I ask for special care of all animals who work in service and therapy and alongside first-responders and the military.
2. Saint Augustine, who struggled with the temptations of sin and found the courage to turn away.
3. Saint Cecilia, patron saint of church musicians. I ask her to bless all those who spark praise-filled song. I ask her to bless me and my colleagues with sharp minds, strong backs, inspired liturgy, nimble fingers and spirit-filled leadership.
4. Saint Mary, who I petition to bless all families, especially those fighting illness, abuse, estrangement, in-fighting, addiction, financial difficulties and infidelity. I ask her to watch over parents who are caring for ill children or who are concurrently raising their own kids while trying to balance caring for their aging parents.
5.  Saint Joseph, who I petition to come to the aid of the unemployed and the underemployed.

If nothing else, it reminds me that saints were just regular people who stepped up by works of extreme faith. They didn't float on clouds or coordinate their fashions with their halos. They were hungry, they got tired, they bled, they cried, they danced at weddings, drank wine, sewed ripped seams in their tunics, fought with siblings, stubbed their toes and stepped in camel poop.

Just like us.

...although I'm not sure I've ever stepped in camel poop.

Who would your Fab Five be? Why not chat them up every now and then?

Try to Remember...

At our office Christmas party, held at a restaurant attached to a nearby mall last month, I parked and went in. It was a lovely time, celebrating the holidays with my colleagues. We were given a few generous gifts and had some terrific food, while toasting each other with the best that the season has to offer.

When I left, I had a devil of a time finding my car.

When I had pulled in, I was somewhat rushed and was carrying a few things and therefore didn't pay 100% attention to where my car was.

But that didn't explain to my satisfaction the nearly 15 minutes I spent trying to locate it. Even hitting the emergency button on my keyfob didn't help.

The episode itself wouldn't be worrisome if not for the fact that just days prior, I was trying to recall a specific Christmas Eve

One of my choir members and I were assigned multiple Masses that had us camped out at church for several hours. Between services, she brought a small Christmas Eve meal for the two of us, complete with candles. In a tiny room out of sight of the altar, she and I toasted each other, exchanging wishes for a blessed season.

...but in recalling the episode, I could not come up with her name.

The incident came back to me during a walk with Parker, and as he and I marched through various neighborhoods, I struggled and struggled. Finally, it came to me, but the annoyance stuck with me. In fact, it still sticks with me.

I also remember a business trip where, upon arrival back at the Philadelphia airport, I took what felt like a half an hour to finally locate my car in the massive parking lot. Again, I didn't pay much attention on the way in. But still -- sheesh, you'd think I'd at least remember what floor it was on!

I'm to the point now where I take a quick picture whenever I leave my car in long-term parking.

Just yesterday, I put a kettle on to boil water for oatmeal... and was later told by Eileen that I had activated the 'wrong' heating element, with the teapot resting on a cold circle while the one next to it was glowing.

No damage, thankfully. But unsettling.

Frankly, I'm scared about losing my memory.

My mother passed away from complications due to Alzheimer's disease that left her in a fog of dementia.

Her father also passed away having slipped from reality cognitively. Now, his condition would be called Alzheimer's; back then, he was simply senile.

Her sister, too, suffered the malady.

It frightens me because, in watching Mom's mental capacities diminish with alarming rapidity, I'm worried that the genes might affect me as well.

Mom's decline was heartbreaking -- and I'm sure it was even more painful for her to endure. She was an RN for, I don't know, 40 years or so. As such, she carried around detailed and complex medical information in her head. She was so sharp that she could (and often did) step into emergency situations and administer expert first aid.

From that pinnacle, she fell to a situation where she could not muster her grandchildren's names. 

By the end, she had lost the ability to speak altogether.

I keep reminding myself that the genetic cocktail that comprises me is also made up of my dad's side, which has an incredible reputation for not only length but also breadth. Dad died at 75 from a burst aneurysm, but mentally, he was fine. His mother -- my grandmother -- passed away at an amazing age of 102, and most of her years found her alert and sharp.

I hope -- and pray -- that I favor that side.

The gradual evaporation of things like my ability to write, to play music -- heck, even to tackle the New York Times crossword puzzle -- fills me with dread.

It's bad enough be slowing down in general. Napping more. Becoming winded. Squinting into the headlights of oncoming traffic at night. The thoughts of losing my children's names or the date of my wedding anniversary or motor skills like bowel control are nightmarish.

I try to ease the panic by thinking that maybe my brain is just too full at this point in my life. Having teenagers at home, I carry around with me the names of the cast of Modern Family and can easily pick Taylor Swift out in a press photo. But by the same token, I know who Peter Marshall is, who Blake Edwards is, who Olivia DeHavilland is.

So maybe it's just sheer overload.

Believe me, if I were to forget Beyonce, I don't think I'd really miss her exit from my brain.

The worry is really worthless; there's not a whole lot I can do about it.

...

Catherine.

If you want to know.

The choir member with whom I shared a very kind Christmas Eve dinner was named Catherine.